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Sunday, April 17, 2011

Yet another day.
Forgiveness...I've forgiven, but will it be taken for granted? I hope it won't.

So, I woke up at around 1 in the noon and brushed up after that. As usual and typical, I switched on my computer as the 2nd thing to do for the day(The first was to wake up and brush up).

After 3 hours of slacking, I went to start mugging till 5 and was revising on Chemistry and have learnt what is "Cations" and "Anions" and I found out that I've already learnt it last year just that they're using another difficult term to describe it.

After mugging, I went to take a cold shower since I was sweating here and there.

Not to mention that I ate around 1 full plate of sushis because I have to take my medicines and after taking it, I'm feeling very drowsy now but I don't really feel like turning in for the day just yet.

Getting back to the main point ; should I forgive my close friend, who has insulted me till to the extend whereby I can't take the blow? I guess I won't due to the fact that I've used a relationship as "money" and paid it to see someone whom I've regarded as a "close" friend's true self. I won't mind losing another friend for a valid reason, but after what had happened to my another friend...I've learnt to cherish my current pals more but at certain point of time I just can't. Either they've done something wrong which is a big blow to me, or I just feel that they're not the type of person who I can regard as a friend of mine.

After going through what had happened, it has taught me a valuable lesson ; To cherish someone when they're still here, don't wait till the last minute when they're gone then you start cherishing. It's already too late by then.

Am I being pathetic? Why am I even missing someone who doesn't miss me at all? Heh, what a joke.

I have always asked myself this question "Where should I go? Which path should I take? Should I take the left where nothing is right or the right where nothing is left?".

Sometimes, it's not the person you miss...but it's feelings and moments you had when you were with them. Make sense doesn't it...?

Hopefully someday...I'll see you someday again in the clouds...

ZhiKai last roared after this post at 8:34 AM

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Friday, April 15, 2011

I won't let destiny take control over my life but instead, it's the time to take control of my own destiny and create the life I want.

So far so good, I did pretty "well" for my Term 1...50% pass as well as 50% failure which made up of 3 passed and failed subjects.

Went to the Health Promotion Board for a scheduled check-up today and found out that my spine wasn't that serious in terms of curving...et cetera.

When I was waiting at the registration counter to fill up some forms for X-Ray, I saw this particular piece of message pasted up onto the wall and it says "Don't quit! Because obstacles are the stepping stones to success!" and I was deeply motivated by it.

You might think that I'm not aware of even a single thing, but actually I'm very well aware of what's going on around me. There's no need to lie, no need to hide, as I look into your eyes.

Though I'm feeling deeply insulted by someone who was once my close friend, but I've never thought of arguing over the comments as it wasn't worth it. I'd rather be ignorant and treat it as nothing has happened so we might or will go back to the way it was in the past...

I saw, I read, I thought, I assumed...and I suffered. The feeling of going through this kind of "ordeal" isn't good at all or should I phrase it in the way that it sucks to the core of the Earth.

I forgive easily but I won't forget...though that someone might not deserve it but how long will it last? How much trust can I put on them? How can I rely on them in the future when I need help? Will they treat me the way I'm treating them now? What's with all the "Treat others how you want to be treated"? It doesn't seems true to me or is all this just purely my imaginations and assumptions? Sometimes you don't know you've crossed a line until the other side and by then, it's already too late to realize it. I announced the "closure" of the first chapter of my life...but somehow something is missing and I can't close it just yet.

I said that I won't think anymore about it and to focus on my goals, but yet, I still search for quotes, songs...and even shows which remind me of the good time we had in the past, but it's now no longer the same and it will be as if I'd never existed before.

How I wish I can get out of this "ordeal" but yet, I can't. There's a story behind every person, and a reason why they're the way they are, they aren't just like that because they want to, but it's something in the past created them and sometimes it's really impossible to fix them.

Hopefully I'll see you someday again in the clouds...

ZhiKai last roared after this post at 3:50 AM

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About me

A.Z.K (CK),
Born on 5th April
~~NSPS~~,
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ANTI-Smoking
ANTI-Clubbing
ANTI-Gangsterism
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Going out with friends & my loved one
Surfing Forums and Net
Playing online games during my leisure time
Get some images to Photoshop when I'm bored
Reading up on HTML/Java Scripts when I'm really free

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I wish for you to be back
Hoping all my hopes I've hoped will come true one day

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